- Write about my meltdown in Southampton when I visited whats-her-name who wrote that book, and lived with another trans woman who worked in a factory. I was overwhelmed by being in the same single bed as her and couldn’t identify or understand what the heck was happening in my mind and my emotions. I went downstairs and don’t really remember the rest, other than cutting myself by accident on the rose bushes outside the front door when I left the house, which sent me in to a total spiral, and was then taken to A&E.
- Write about how after a wonderful week with Star and an amazing evening and morning, and then seeing SJ, and also talking to Jenny, how I was overwhelmed with positive feelings but also memories of emotional overwhelm, and how that made me think about talking to the person who groomed me, because I seem to associate talking about very very intimate and deep feelings within bad things happening to me and meltdown… so my mind went to when I felt similar in my early youth, but the only person I felt I could talk to was the very worst and wrong person, which is no longer the case. I am going to say my stream of consciousness to the people who love me, even if I’m scared it will go badly wrong.